I’m feeling exceedingly fat.
Aside from the fact that I loathe fat people, I’ve actually placed a lot of my own self-worth in my body (largely because it’s so awkward). So, “feeling fat” for me is pretty much the same as saying that I feel fantastically disgusting and unattractive human being on the planet. And even though I’m not looking for anything at the moment, I’d really like it if I could turn sideways and seemingly disappear for my own ego.
I’d just really like to be tiny and look really good enough that I’d like to bang myself. Is that so much to ask for without developing an eating disorder?
